Let me be real with you for a second: this is my least favorite time of year. Well, at least the second half of my least favorite time of year. We made it through consumer-christmas (I was lucky enough to escape to a hippie, snow-filled hot springs where the closest thing to a christmas celebration was a single reindeer-covered turtleneck), but now we’re heading into “I hate myself and my body and everything I stand for and I MUST CHANGE NOW!” season. New Year’s Resolutions. The worst.
Yep, this is where I was in the snowy, hot springs wonderland.
Since arriving back home from the internet-free hills, my cyber life has been filled with: “This year, I will…[insert unachievable, superficial, yucko goal here].” And as much as I hate to admit it, I get caught up in it. I want to hear about what diets other people are trying, what weight-loss goals they have, and where they hope to be by this time next year. The little (or actually pretty hefty) part of my brain that likes to beat myself up for no good reason latches on to these resolutions and starts a diatribe of self-hate. “Maybe you should do that too! If you want to be beautiful and loved and successful, obviously you have to change ______ and _______ and _______ and _______ and everything else about yourself!” I start making up little resolutions in my head, and think through how to put on the face of loving myself really hard, while actually sinking into this grimey pit of self-loathing.
Ugh it’s so depressing. So here’s what I’m thinking. INUNDATE THE INTERNET WITH NEW YEAR’S BODY-POSITIVITY!!! For real, you guys. It’s not like setting goals to make change in your life is inherently a bad thing, but it does seem like our society has wrenched the resolution into yet another way of encouraging consumerism, further marginalizing those who are already marginalized, and generally giving us more reason to focus on achieving “perfection” in these little individual bodies instead of focusing on making change in the fucked up system we live in.
Let’s take it back! I’m going to make some goals that focus on self-care, body-loving, and community-empowerment, and I invite you all to do the same. And to share that loving shine all over.
In 2016, I will do my best to:
- Be really goofy when I feel like it, because it feels good and fuck what other people think.
- Give myself permission to feel the things I’m feeling and ask for the things I want and need from myself and others.
- Move my body when and how I want to.
- Compliment folks on things other than appearance.
- Stand up for and in solidarity with people who need it in ways that they ask for.
- Give myself some grace and lots of pats on the back for being pretty great even if I can’t follow through with every last thing I set out to do.
And I will FOR SURE open this juicy, body-positive space called HEALTH CLUB to share with my community! YES!